God sees deep within your mind and heart. God knows your secret doubts. He knows what you think of your abilities and weaknesses. He knows your fears and desires.
Sarah was ninety years old and so she laughed (to herself) when she heard that she would have a baby. Of course she did!
In Matthew’s gospel we hear Jesus teaching us not to “perform” our good deeds for the benefit of recognition and praise from the people who see us doing it. Because if we do we will only be rewarded on that narrow and fleeting level.
The promise is this: God will reward us when we do things that demonstrate our faith in God’s mercy and love and generosity. God will reward us with peace and fulfilment when we glorify him with our faith. God sees everything we do and the motive behind if too.
God’s promises are real and can be relied upon whether they be as wild as the promise of a child for a ninety year old woman, or as vague as an unspecified reward for keeping quiet about your acts of love and charity.
Why laugh at God’s promises?… Is anything too hard for The Lord?
Then one of them said, “I will return to you about this time next year, and your wife, Sarah, will have a son!” Sarah was listening to this conversation from the tent. Abraham and Sarah were both very old by this time, and Sarah was long past the age of having children. So she laughed silently to herself and said, “How could a worn-out woman like me enjoy such pleasure, especially when my master—my husband—is also so old?” Then the Lord said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh? Why did she say, ‘Can an old woman like me have a baby?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return about this time next year, and Sarah will have a son.” Sarah was afraid, so she denied it, saying, “I didn’t laugh.” But the Lord said, “No, you did laugh.”
But when you give to someone in need, don’t let your left hand know what your right hand is doing. Give your gifts in private, and your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.
Matthew 6:17,18 NLT
But when you fast, comb your hair and wash your face. Then no one will notice that you are fasting, except your Father, who knows what you do in private. And your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.
End the evil of those who are wicked, and defend the righteous.
For you look deep within the mind and heart, O righteous God.
No matter how unlikely it once seemed that faith could actually make any real difference in my life, I have found that it has. I have found that The Lord really does provide for all my needs and way beyond them too. I have found that when The Lord makes a promise, he keeps it.
I only pray that I can always keep strong in my faith.
Today’s readings: Genesis 16:1-18:15, Matthew 6:1-24, Psalms 7:1-17, Proverbs 2:1-5